Thursday, September 6, 2007
Date Sept 06 2007
Realli realli veri heartbroken... Time 0136... the message in my hp inbox cause mi to be heartbroken... " i telling u for sure i like someone else le" Izzit realli the truth? Hw i wish it isnt...
She told mi she heartache... even though i nt sure wat the reason... u heartache... i jiu nt heartache ma? U change mi alot alot since the first time... In sch, i nvr take off my mask be myself... Is u that change mi de... I nvr open up myself cause i dun like to talk alot... but is u change mi de... Nvm... At least i noe i realli do my best for tis relationship... i dun wish to have another biggest regret jus like when i wit jac... Treasure? Tis time i realli treasure... I nt like wat angela wan his bf to be... MUS go to same sch tgt... MUS always pei each other at all times... I cant... I believe as a guy, it is a MUS to have a dreamz n work for it... If a gal insist on going same sch... then wat abt married n have to work next time? Call to work everyday every hour?
U noe ma? I often set my brain tinking deeply tinking critically... Asking myself for a detailed ans to a simple qns "What is independent? How to u see someone is independent?" But onli in front of u, i can stop all thses tinking n let myself rest... be lamest of possible...
So wat if i can manage a camp wit 100 plus cadets n yet i cant manage my own love life? So wat if i can control my cadets... when i cant even control myself still in love wit u???
